Tag Archives: Issue 1

Applied Science

by Keetje Kuipers

To explain, to chart, to graph
what has lasted this long and what hasn’t.

To take the temperature, not with the back
of the hand but with a thermometer. One hundred
thermometers. One thousand.

To correlate, categorize. To count
stacks into stacks. To assign significance

—to a woman, a bed, toast spread with jam.

We make meaning faster than we can understand it:

Listen to the body only
long enough to ignore what it says. Discard
each explanation we uncover.

But in resorting to words—

But if it becomes a story—

Seven years without her was a glacier,
a delicacy, an unquantifiable
quantity.

 

 

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Ought

by Keetje Kuipers

 

Each afternoon heavy clouds form in the north,

and each evening when I take the dogs out, it snows.
Each morning the mice fly invisible under the drifts,

leaving their tracks only where they cross my path.

I ought to be sick of my life, I ought to be too bored
for words. Each day the red-tailed hawk sits

in his tree, cocks his head from side to side, takes

a low pass over the field and returns with a mouse
for his meal. The dogs bark at the deer, and the deer

don’t move until the dogs have stopped. I ought

to be losing my mind with all this familiarity,
with loving every damn thing I’ve come to know.

 

 

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Prayer

She’s meeting a friend for a walk through the museum of fine arts and lunch –errands to run on the way, a bill to pay, she passes the man who is always sitting with his canvas, painting on the corner of a quiet street, fourteen degrees this morning, and he’s there on his stool, dabbing in the bricks of a nondescript apartment building, recycling bins out back, sagging fence in front. His prayer. She takes the train in, and it’s different because although it is the route to work, she is not going to work, not until later. The meeting with the friend makes her ride entirely unlike every other day of the week.

 

 

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Kafka’s Wound

by Judith Skillman

 

Toward sunset it bleeds orange, plums,
and wine. The father always at table
with his mug in hand. How long
must a son allow the city to unwind
its long avenues, branching rivers

full of walkers insular with autumn.
It’s true the blade took garlic cloves
from their little white coats,
so pliant, the stems beneath that fat knife
wolfing into the core of the matter.

It’s true there must be a mother somewhere
in the story—her stringy hair, her roast
burning inside the oven. He sees the clock tower
in the square, glances up to find a rim of moon.
At least, for now, the hole’s been bled
of what it holds. As far as a man can walk
the shops stretch, their signs reversed.
Closed for another, longer night.
Withholding exactly that porcelain—
that Jan Becher Karlovy liqueur cup

one needs to clamp between finger
and thumb. He’s learned one lesson.
This wound must be purged each day.
Else the stench of what it carries
emanates from his mouth, and others turn away.

 

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What To Give

by Jeff Hardin

 

I could give
my horizon,

the one I see
on cheekbones,

or I could give
how a gravestone

is armless
and can’t do anything

to hold back
a soul.

And then there are
those doodlings

my child leaves everywhere,
almost-words

in some new language
I have to

lay on my stomach
to read.

If I could give away
the woman’s fingers

sauntering through
the organ’s tones,

I’d also give
my last three steps

in creek shallows,
how cool my feet felt

in silt.
But who wants

wayward things,
the bricklayer’s humming,

the sandcastle’s lean,
the thimble of air,

the two rowboats
side by side

bumping against
one another

as if in sleep?

 

 

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Elegy at Lake Murray

by Susan Laughter Meyers

 

And what of the pines
branching over the lake? Am I to take them
as a sign,
these few drops of rain as mercy?
Let them cool my wrist
and palm, the crease at my elbow,
as if to say,
There, and there, this gloss—
here, this wet wink misting your face.

The darkest clouds are blowing over,
shaped by wind
that whips across water.
In its path the surface breaks
into ripples—
no, wrinkles. I feel the chill.
For the living, the chickadee’s
boisterous doxologies
and old beads of turtles
strung in a row, sunning on their log
and keeping track: a long, slow
count of tomorrow’s
lack and all the past seasons.
May the yellow warbler
keep flitting about.
May the dog, the crow, persistent and loud,
settle their complaints
against nothing but air.

Between two clouds, a crack of sunlight.
Shadows of waves
are small, ephemeral, lively
as children who’ve never known death.
Cupped and quick, the shallow waves.
Some rolling toward—
and others, whose backs
are bright swells, quietly rolling away.
—for L.A.F.

 

 

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A Prayer for Marriage

by Gary L. McDowell

 

Let there be woman deranged made of words:
gardeners and snow-ghosts, moving lips
and butterfly-knots. Let there be.

Let there be man garlanded, houred.
Let there be up to our wrists a blind spot.
Let there be all that is forbidden:

songs of devotion, songs of mourning, songs
of fragile—kiss me in the whirling.
Let there be a cup of sugar. Let there be madly

open mouths, bone-stars, two bodies
in bed. Let there be undoing and more time.
Let there be a fever to subside, apple-picking,

the dipping of hands together, touch and more time.
Let there be a spine, a book leafed open,
selfishness. Let there be haircuts, matching

forks and spoons: the little things. The mice
that’ll nest in the garage. Do you trap them—or
let there be come, let’s go inside.

Let there be enough. Let there be. Let there be
lunch on a Tuesday. Quiet, more time,
two bodies because the world

could stand to be still sometimes,
and sometimes it never is, and so let there be wine
and pulp and singing and devour me.

 

 

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Every Anonymous City

by Gary L. McDowell

 

I knew a girl who closed her eyes
every time she heard a car horn,

drew koi on the knees of her jeans,
knew what it meant to be anonymous

in a crowd, and now I close my eyes,
step into the street—a reflection of the people

who’ve walked here before me—and know
that koi—a homophone

for love—can live two-hundred years,
but I can’t manage long without a window,

the patterns of streets and corners
when every city has its perfect hour:

moment before the light changes, moment we don’t
know ourselves from those orange or white

or blue fish: the sorrow we feel over traffic.
The shadows when we clench our eyes match

our ground-shadows pushing forward home.

 

 

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Reservations

A short play

 

CHARACTERS

MAE: A woman in her mid-seventies. Edgar’s wife of many years.

EDGAR: A man in his late seventies. Mae’s husband of many years.

 

SET

Edgar and Mae’s kitchen. A simple set is preferred. A kitchenette set with a table and two chairs, a stove, a sink; perhaps a refrigerator.

 

 

(Mid-morning.

 

LIGHTS UP on EDGAR and MAE.

 

MAE stands at a kitchen sink washing and drying morning dishes. EDGAR sits at a kitchen table, reading a newspaper.)

 

 

EDGAR

Good breakfast, Mae.

 

(MAE turns to him.)

 

MAE

Thank you, Edgar.

 

(Slight pause.)

 

EDGAR

Damn good breakfast.

 

(Beat.)

 

MAE

The secret’s in the skillet.

 

EDGAR

How so?

 

MAE

That’s my secret, not yours.

 

EDGAR

That’s right, that’s right. Your secret, not mine.

 

(Pause. EDGAR returns to reading his newspaper. MAE picks up a skillet. She looks it over. She gently runs the skillet under the kitchen faucet, and gingerly dried it with a paper towel. She looks toward EDGAR.)

 

Mae

You don’t wash it.

 

Edgar

What?

 

Mae

The skillet. You don’t wash it. With soap. You don’t scrub it.

 

Edgar

Why not?

 

Mae

It ruins the seasoning.

 

EDGAR

The what?

 

MAE

The seasoning. (Beat.) The flavor.

 

EDGAR

What flavor?

 

MAE

Maintaining the seasoning improves the taste and flavor of the foods you cook in it.

 

EDGAR

Where’d’ya learn that?

 

MAE

 

(Slight pause.)

 

EDGAR

(Smiling at MAE.)

You and your cookbooks.

 

(MAE smiles back at him. Pause.)

 

Mae

What do you want for dinner?

 

EDGAR

Dinner?

 

MAE

 

EDGAR

I’m still digesting my breakfast, Mae.

 

MAE

I need to defrost something.

 

(Slight pause.)

 

EDGAR

What about lunch?

 

MAE

Liverwurst sandwich, Edgar.

 

EDGAR

Right, right. Of course.

 

MAE

And I have bologna.

 

EDGAR

Right, right.

 

MAE

(Tenderly.)

Edgar. We decided lunch years ago.

 

EDGAR

Right, right. Of course.

 

(Pause.)

 

MAE

What about dinner?

 

EDGAR

I’m thinking. (Slight pause.) What are my options?

 

MAE

(Exasperated.)

Chicken, chop meat, pork.

 

EDGAR

Is that all?

 

MAE

All what?

 

EDGAR

All my options.

 

MAE

(Confused.)

That’s what we got, Edgar.

 

(Pause.)

 

EDGAR

What if I wanted, say, I dunno … fish?

 

MAE

Fish?

 

EDGAR

 

(Beat.)

MAE

We never have fish.

 

EDGAR

But what if I wanted fish?

 

MAE

You hate fish.

 

EDGAR

Do I?

 

MAE

If memory serves me right, Edgar, you do hate fish.

 

(Beat.)

 

EDGAR

But what if I did want fish?

 

MAE

Why would you want fish?

 

EDGAR

Humor me, Mae.

 

(Pause.)

 

MAE

I suppose I would go to the market.

 

EDGAR

Today?

 

MAE

Yes, today.

 

EDGAR

Not Thursday?

 

MAE

(Smiling.)

No. Today.

 

(EDGAR smiles back at MAE. He returns to reading the newspaper. Pause.)

 

MAE (CONT’D)

Should I…?

 

EDGAR

(Looking up from his newspaper.)

What?

 

MAE

Go to the market….

 

(EDGAR looks at her inquisitively.)

 

MAE (CONT’D)

For fish.

 

EDGAR

I hate fish, Mae.

 

MAE

Of course you do.

 

(EDGAR returns to his newspaper. Pause.)

 

MAE (CONT’D)

Chicken, chop or pork?

 

EDGAR

(Looking up from his newspaper.)

What was in that breakfast?

 

MAE

Same thing as always.

 

EDGAR

Something was different.

 

MAE

Three sunny-sides, two American bacons, two links, slice of toast, orange juice.

 

EDGAR

What did you have?

 

MAE

My breakfast, Edgar. (Beat.) Scramble.

 

EDGAR

Right, right. (Slight pause.) Something was different.

 

MAE

(Emphatically.)

Nothing was different, Edgar. Chicken, chop or pork.

 

(Pause.)

 

EDGAR

What if we went out?

 

MAE

Out?

 

EDGAR

 

(Slight pause.)

 

MAE

Out where?

 

EDGAR

For dinner.

 

(Beat.)

 

MAE

Why would we do that?

 

EDGAR

Something different.

 

(MAE crosses to the table. She sits. Pause.)

 

MAE

Where would we go, Edgar?

 

EDGAR

(Putting down the newspaper; with emphasis.)

Anywhere we want to.

 

(Beat.)

 

MAE

I don’t know.

 

EDGAR

(Taking her hand.)

Come on, Mae.

 

MAE

Where?

 

(Pause. EDGAR thinks.)

 

EDGAR

(Smiling.)

Toscano’s.

 

(Beat.)

 

MAE

Toscano’s?

 

EDGAR

You remember Toscano’s.

 

MAE

Of course I remember Toscano’s.

 

EDGAR

I proposed to you at Toscano’s.

 

MAE

Of course you did.

 

EDGAR

And you accepted.

 

MAE

Of course I did.

 

EDGAR

Then, let’s go to Toscano’s.

 

MAE

Are you sure, Edgar?

 

EDGAR

Come on, Mae.

 

(Slight pause.)

 

MAE

Alright. Alright. Let’s go to Toscano’s.

 

(Pause, as they look at each other.)

 

EDGAR

Let’s get us a reservation.

 

MAE

Alright. Alright. (Beat.) When? What time?

 

(Pause. EDGAR thinks.)

 

EDGAR

We eat dinner at five.

 

MAE

Five, then.

(Slight pause.)

 

EDGAR

(An epiphany.)

No. Make it five-thirty.

 

MAE

Edgar!

 

EDGAR

(Confidently.)

Five-thirty, Mae.

 

(Beat.)

 

MAE

Alright, Edgar. Five-thirty.

 

(They look at each other.)

 

EDGAR

You gonna make the call?

 

MAE

Alright, I will.

 

(MAE stands and crosses to a kitchen wall phone.)

 

EDGAR

You got the number?

 

(MAE leafs through an old battered address book that had been hanging on a nail on the wall next to the telephone.)

 

MAE

In my book.

 

EDGAR

You got the number in your book?

 

MAE

Of course I do.

 

(Beat.)

 

EDGAR

All this time?

 

MAE

(Locating the phone number.)

Here it is.

 

EDGAR

(Lower voice; almost to himself.)

All this time.

 

(MAE dials the phone number.)

 

MAE

Hello. I would like to make a reservation for tonight for two people at five-thirty… What?… Is this Toscano’s?… Toscano’s…. Do you have the new number, then?… What?… When?… Oh, my…. Alright, then…. You have a nice….

 

(She places the receiver back on the hook.)

 

EDGAR

What?… Well…?

 

(Pause, as MAE crosses to the table and sits.)
MAE

That was…. That was….

 

EDGAR

(He takes her hand.)

Go on, Mae.

 

MAE

Toscano’s closed, Edgar. (Beat.) More than twenty years ago.

 

EDGAR

Who was that, then?

 

MAE

Some oriental lady.

 

EDGAR

I don’t think we’d like Chinese food.

 

MAE

No. (Beat.) It wasn’t a restaurant at all, Edgar. (Beat.) She was just an oriental lady. (Beat.) She’s had the number for years.

 

EDGAR

Oh. (Beat.) Well, then.

 

MAE

Well, then.

 

EDGAR

 

(Slight pause.)

 

MAE

Now what?

 

EDGAR

Well. (Beat.) We’ll have dinner here.

 

(Pause.)

 

MAE

Edgar?

 

EDGAR

What?

 

MAE

Why Toscano’s?

 

(Beat.)

 

EDGAR

No reason.

 

MAE

Why breakfast?

 

EDGAR

Mae?

 

MAE

Why fish?

 

EDGAR

No reason.

 

MAE

Edgar!

 

(Slight pause.)

 

EDGAR

I’ve been to my doctor. (Beat.) I’m sick, Mae.

 

MAE

What?

 

EDGAR

 

MAE

You’ve been sick before.

 

EDGAR

Not like this.

 

(Pause.)

 

MAE

Oh, Edgar.

 

EDGAR

Sorry, Mae.

 

(Slight pause.)

 

MAE

Bad?

 

(Beat.)

 

EDGAR

 

(Slight pause.)

 

MAE

When were you going to tell me?

 

EDGAR

Yesterday. Last night. This morning. Tonight at Toscano’s. (Beat.) Maybe never.

 

 (Pause. EDGAR and MAE silently look at each other. EDGAR breaks their stare to look at a wall clock. He stands and crosses towards the kitchen door.)

 

MAE

Where are you going?

 

(EDGAR points at the wall clock.)

 

EDGAR

 

MAE

Now what, Edgar?

 

(Slight pause. EDGAR stops at the doorway and turns to MAE.)

 

EDGAR

I don’t know.

 

MAE

Edgar?

 

EDGAR

Yes?

 

MAE

(Smiling.)

Chicken. (Beat.) Chicken. We’ll have chicken for dinner, Edgar.

 

(Slight pause.)

 

EDGAR

(Smiling.)

That sounds real good, Mae.

 

(EDGAR exits. MAE sits silently for several beats. She stands and crosses to the sink. She picks up the skillet. She turns on the water faucet and grabs a bottle of dishwashing liquid. She pauses over the sink. Holding the skillet in one hand and the dishwashing liquid in the other she begins to weep as the LIGHTS SLOWLY FADE TO BLACK.)

 

THE END.

 

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